You think it is confusing?!

My hard drive burned up on my computer so fortunately I have a few musings from the last few years on a blog. Supposedly to people who have AS, NTs are confusing. They can't read our facial expressions, body language or other social cues. So what about us? You are confusing AND frustrating!! It was once again my ex husband's "scheduled visit" last night and he failed to take our darling daughter because he did not enforce it. He came to the house, stayed in the car and watched everything happen. She was refusing to go with him and he sits there. Read again, he sits there. He does not say a word. Mum. . . mums the words for dear old Scott. I was mad. I told him I was mad, still nothing comes from his lips. He leaves. I have stuff to do. Christmas is next week. I have stuff to do. I needed this night. I needed it for my sanity. And he is confused? PSHAW!!!! He doesn't have the corner on it. Parenting is not convenient. If it was, it would be babysitting. Scott is a babysitter not a father.

I think I just punched you.

I ran into Scott's youngest brother Aaron and his youngest son, Leo at McDonald's the other day. When he recognized me and my sister he made an audible sound that sounded like he had been punched in the stomach. He then did his nervous laugh commenting on how big his son had gotten. End of encounter. Aaron is the one out of the four boys that denies he has a diagnosable disorder. The others are medicated for anxiety with the normal SSRIs and for my ex, an additional sedative. Aaron's wife, Sydney and I were friends during my marriage to Scott. Since the ostracizationof me by the whole Smith family, I feel the most sorry for her. She seemed the most emotionally intelligent out of the wives. Her son sure has grown in the last two years, though.

I need a name!

I have been wanting to blog more about my experience being married to a very socially awkward man. I have been told by a few people that I should write a book but I don't think my writing skills are good enough. So, I have been really thinking about just blogging and inviting people to read this. I started this soon after my husband departed from my life but I haven't written consistently. I have written elsewhere but not on this blog. Sometimes I get so frustrated dealing with Scott Smith, the socially awkward attorney, that I need to write to get it all out! So, this is what I am going to do. I am going to do it here so you can read it and comment and criticize and acclaim. I have been trying to think of a great name for this blog but the one I already established should be fine. Recently a guy who knew my husband from law school said this about Scott, "he may have Asperger's but he is a mean Asperger's". Yes, that is what I want everyone to know. He is mean. He intentionally hurts people and stands there aloof, uncaring and full of pride. So here goes more of what is inside my head.

Lying, not understanding information given, or what?

I asked Scott a while ago if he had a CD player in his new car. His new car that he bought the day after he traded me an Acura MDX for an old 1999 Subaru. We traded because I could not afford the payments and he would deduct the amount from the money he owed me before giving me the money. Can we say control issues?

Anyway, back to the CD player, he told me his new car did not have a CD player. Today when he came to pick up our daughter she wanted to listen to a Webkinz CD and I told her she couldn't because Daddy didn't have a CD player in his car. He then said he did have a CD player in his car that he must have thought I said DVD. Oh, ok!